如果喜欢上了一个你知道永远都不会喜欢自己的人,你会怎么做?
如果你喜欢的人不理你了,那该怎么办?
如果你明知道你和他是不可能的,可是你偏偏不想放手,那又该怎么办?
如果你早就知道他对你没兴趣,但是你又偏偏不想放弃,是不是很笨?
如果你真的很喜欢很喜欢他,你会坚持吗?
Hi blog miss you much~
Just having the urge and feel to type down something here today.
People who have been my friends since secondary school may know that my friendship has not always been the best. Being betrayed by 2 of my best friends during secondary 2 was definitely not the thing anyone of you would want to experience. The feeling of betrayal was nasty. It was devastating. It was hurting. It was every single nasty feelings that you could think and feel of.
I managed to walk out from the darkest day. I made new friends which i thought wouldn't betray me or turn their backs on me. I thought they would be different. I thought they could accept me for who i am. I thought they would be my real friends. But i was wrong. The same thing happened. It was me, all alone again. It was even more devastating. It was like shit.
Not until i met Silvana, i started believing that friendship still exist. She's still the best of the best even till now. But that doesn't mean i trusted everyone. I still have the fear of being betrayed again. This was the thing which had been haunting my dreams for the past few years. Yes, it had a great impact on me. I'm afraid of losing anymore friends. I'm afraid of being stranded alone once again. I'm afraid of having to face the same thing all over again.
Ever since, every time when i make new friends, deep in my heart, i wish that they could be with me forever. I cherish them a lot and no one could tell how much they meant to me. I'm afraid i would lose them again like what i did twice in the past. So sometimes i tend to think too much which lead to negative thoughts and i would be afraid all over again.
But anyway, thanks to all those people who betrayed me years ago. Without the betrayals, i wouldn't know what are real friends and what are true friends. I believe that i have friends who are far better than yours now because they are the one who will accompany me for the rest of my life. Furthermore, without the betrayals, i wouldn't have met my TRUE friends.
Bye peeps :)
Happy belated Valentine's Day to all.
Received a few belated valentine's gifts today.
Ever felt that the whole world is against you?
Ever did something which cant be mended?
Some apologies are never enough.
Some words are never meant to be mean.
Some things were never meant to happen.
Some wounds could never be healed.
Some people are never meant to be yours.
Words can kill people.
Words can heal people.
Words can hurt people.
Words can be meant a thousand things.
But when some words really hits you right through the heart, that's it.
Some mistakes can be forgiven.
Some mistakes are meant to be left alone and allow time to forget it.
Some mistakes can never be forgiven.
Wounds can be healed but it takes time.
However some wounds were meant to be there forever.
When i say i'm okay, it doesn't mean that i really am.
When i say let's forget it, it doesn't mean that i've really forget it.
When i say anything which doesn't really seems to fit, yes, it doesn't fit at all and it never will.
Very sorry for the dead blog!
No time to update and don't feel like updating!
Well, my laptop now a bit sot sot. Yesterday a fujitsu guy came my house to change my hardware. Saw my laptop being dismanted into pieces. Heart pain. And in the end the hardware he brought is a spoilt one. =.=
So he say he will come another day. Hmmm....
That's all for today i think.
Do continue visiting my blog! =))
OH YAH! My banc watch is arriving soon from Korea <3333<3333
*ANTICIPATES*
*WINKS WINKS*
Sorry for the dead blog!
Merry Christmas everyone!
Make a wish :D
Below are some photos of my 17th birthday! Enjoy!
Went out with the girls last wednesday.! Went to eat small steam boat.
Sorry for the dead blog.
Although it's seems dead,I won't close my blog don't worry.
Been quite busy these few weeks.
Exams are coming soon.I certainly don't have the time to blog every single day. I won't , even if I have the time. Lol.
So. I spent my whole sunday morning watching the vampire's diary. Nice!
And I seriously should stop day dreaming about my future. LOL. You would be fascinated if any one of you are mind readers. Lol.
Alright. That's all about it.
Tata guys!
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