my blog is finally back to normal..but my normal life is not normal anymore..alot of things happened these few days..sadded by everything..now got no mood to do anything..so many things affected me n i realli cant concentrate anymore..things that r belonged to last time is no longer mine anymore..memories that r belonged to me r destroyed by sumone..can i still ta han??
im realli tired le..i care nth !!! i dun care abt wad or wad or wad..i dun care wad u all said..n i dun care wad U said..i juz care abt myself..i dun care wad anybody say frm now on n i dun care abt wad u all tink..i am juz hu i am..maybe i cant be my normal self again..but i will try vry hard to be happy ok??
so wad u all tink abt me..I JUZ DUN CARE ANYMORE !!coz im realli too fed up with myself n with sum pple..that sum pple is juz a piece of shit..the sum pple came in a sudden n juz dissapeared in a sudden..looks lyk shit..smells lyk shit..taste lyk shit..coz it is a piece of SHIT !!
im totally confused..frustrated..complicated now..i dun even noe wad am i tinking now..my brain is no longer mine anymore..it belongs to the sadness..it controlled over it..n im not myself anymore even though i act lyk i am..life is juz lyk a piece of shit..total shit..wads the use of coming to tis world, many pple may ask..let me tell u..it is juz fr 3 things.. life itself, money n love..wad more does pple wan??juz these three..i no longer trust in friendship anymore..except my 3 best fren whom followed my through sec 1 till now..jos, huiling n noella..they brought me nth but happiness n laughters..fren foreva ~
we live in tis world coz our mother gave birth to us..or else we wun be in tis world..rit?? life..it's a long..but it passed vry fast..money..we all love that..love..juz to hurt pple..maybe 'sad' is word to hurt pple deeply in the heart..today is the worse day tis year..in tis class..2007..i wan to go back time..go back to last year..i wan to spent it wif my best frens onli..i realli wish that i'hv nv ever met anyone tis year..it brought me nth..but sadness..n it goes on n on..it nv ends..when can my sadness stop??
maybe tis is wad we need to go through in life so that if u met the right ones in the future, we can appretiate them n treasure them..
5 mins later.....
i juz read ben's blog..n i felt that i hv the same feeling as him..thx ben..i lyk ur last sentence n i tink i noe wads wrong wif me now..i juz dun feel rit..i belonged sumwhere a few days ago..but now, i no longer belong there anymore..u spent time with them..n now, they r saying things abt u..not bad things..but things that u dun wish to hear..n that is one of the feeling i am feeling now..i dunno how to say..but i can describe out..lyk ben's last sentence..' nv imprison ur feelings..let it out n let it go ' .. n now, i let go sum of it..thx ben so much..without wad u said, there's no way i can let it out..live life to the fullest everyday instead of arguing wif pple u dun wan to..live life to the fullest no matter how hard it is..live life to the fullest instead of tinking those unhappy moments..live life to the fullest instead of hating the pple who betrayed u..live life to the fullest no matter wad things u encountered in the future..everything can be solved if u wan it to..n that's life..=)
i understood le..nv imprison ur feelings..let it out n let it go.. ^^ that's wad life is fr..n that's wad feelings r for.. ^^ even though u all ignore me frm now on, but i noe that i can still live life to the fullest without u all..even u left me, but i noe that i still can live life to the fullest without u beside me..i dun need ur concern anymore..im no longer the xiao mei mei in ur eyes..but i'hv grown up..thx fr ur care throughout a few mths last year n tis few months tis year..i learned alot frm u although u hurted me too..but i knew how to look after myself without u by my side..sorry abt ytd..we both r at faults..n now i will keep our last memories deep in my heart..maybe sum days we will still met in the middle of the streets if we hv the fate??yea..maybe..^^ happy ending ok??
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