today's a really bad bad day..
i felt bad.. so bad..
i felt bad about myself..
today we were being punished.. badly
i shldnt say ' we '
shld be , ' them '
i was standing there watching them being pumped..being tortured by him..
i cant do anything..
watching them suffer..
watching their bodies touching the rainwater on the floor..
watching their whole shirt and pants going wet..
but i cant do anything..
i wanted to join them..
coz im also part of them, too..
after that, someone pulled my hand..
i realized that she's been crying..
she said this to me ' i felt bad ' .. ' i felt bad '..
so, i pulled her towards me..
and, she cried again.. i cried, too..
we pulled back..her eyes were red..so were mine..
everyone's crying by that time..
i stambbled to the toilet..
washed up and went home..
reached home..wth..my pencil case in school..
rushed back to school..lucky it was still there..
thanks god...
pissed off by the time i reached home..
so, i stuffed myself with loads of food..
i ate:
almost half the pot of rice, more then half the plate of veggie, two full bowls of soup, 1 can justea, one big slice of cake, 2 midium sized egg tarts and last of all, one packet of biscuit..
by the time i ate finish, i felt really really full..n i felt good..
coz i will stuff myself with food whenever i felt really pissed..
well, thats it..
happy weekend..
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