♥"+[t]he forev[a] lonely [a]nd tarde[d] gal...+"♥

Friday, December 25, 2009;11:58 PM

MERRY CHRISTMAS !

i simply love christmas. it's gonna end very soon. it's christmas today, i still have to work! goddammit?!
leg pain.
work? what's the point of working when u cant even celebrate your favourite christmas day.
really feel like dying today.
work place is at expo somemore. goddammit.
it's all the way until 4thjan2010 somemore. goddammit.
i cant even stay at home on 1stjan2010 somemore. goddammit.
goddammit.
eveything is a shit today. except for justin chan, with his failed surprise for me.
according to him, he was wanting to come expo and give me a surprise since it's christmas and i have no where to celebrate. but when he was on the way, i told him that i'm already reaching red hill and that was when he realized that he failed to surprise me. so in the end, he have to take the train back. HAHA!
SURPRISE~

Saturday, December 19, 2009;12:33 AM

Officially 16 today. 19 december 2009.

The most vivid memory of my secondary school life is that Secondary 2 combined UG leadership camp.
It consists of all the uniformed groups. And yes, all of them.
As far as i could remember, i was the only red cross girl and i was the only chinese girl who went.
I was panicked. What should i do? There were no one i seem to know really well. I thought i was 'dead'. But little did i know, it turns out to be totally different.
At first, it was a huge challenge. With 10 over boys surrounding you and 7 other girls whom you do not even know their names. You were being stranded alone but u have to find a way out no matter what it takes because if you don't, you would be their meat.
The biggest enemy is yourself. You have to fight off all those freaking ego you have and try to blend in with others to eventually produce some nice things out of it. If you don't, you're doomed.
For me, i did it. That very first day of the camp, as far as i could remember, i threw away the shoes of my mum's. You ask me why? I couldn't remember.Maybe it's just basically some stupid act of mine. I dont't know. But throwing away that pair of shoes really hurts - a lot.
However, that first day turns out to be a really nice one. My group is so damn united. We never left anyone out. We never said anything which hurts. We were together. That very night, we girls were in our bunks. Remember i told u, i was the only chinese girl? Well, it doesn't really matter to me anymore at that point of time. I accepted it. But looking at them, hearing them speaking in their own language (malay), i suddenly understood something. The minorities would always feel a sense of unbelonging towards the majorities. And that's what some of our malay friends felt when they're in class. I finally understood.
Maybe it's because of our skin colour. Maybe it's because of our race. Maybe it's any reason you could ever find. Maybe we tried our best to include the minorities. But there's always some thing u could never ever include them in.
Well, returning here, the second day was no much different from the first. It was basically the day for 'high elements' - my greatest fear and my greatest looking-foward-to.
I went in group with 2 other girls. And little did i know, we made a history, which not even the guys(boys) dare to. And for this little history, i'm going to keep it a secret.
The rest of the days left went in a blink of an eye. i really forgot what happened next. But this memory of the camp is the most vivid one.
A group photo of us, i'm the only red cross girl, wearing a white uniform which stands out from the crowd, standing in the middle of everyone, and proud of who i am for the first time.

Thanks everyone for your birthday wish! I really appreciate it.=)
From:(beginning from the earliest)
-Michael Wynn
-Julia
-Ebenezer
-Xue Xun (the one who's always on the dot) 12.00am
-Debbie
-Griffin
-Wen Bin
-Silvana
-Beloved Brother
-Beloved Grandma
-Li Yi
-Yong Qiang (i want another hat!)
-Chee Yin
-Jie Ren
-Mahirah
-Daniel
-Swee Sheng
-Jun Kiat
-Joycelin Ong
-Atiqah
-Justin Chan
-Jia Rong
-Melva
-Shawn Toh
-Selina
-Louis Ho
-Ong Hui Ling
-My Dentist
-Mason
-Lilian Tan
-Beloved SIS!
-Aaron
-Syahirah
-Yuan Ning
-Stephenie
-Lincoln
-Eunice
-Guo wei (the belated)
-Choo Wei (the belated)
-Jun Hong (the belated and totally out one)

It seems so little, but it's the thought that counts. Thanks everyone.

Tuesday, December 15, 2009;11:05 AM

yesterday was prom night at jurong safra. it was fun. memorable.
below are photos taken!